So, both my sister and my brother have their own blogs. For a while now, my sister has been pestering me about creating my own, and so I have. I’ve found it difficult to write this, as I have no idea who is going to be reading it, if anyone… It seems a bit pointless, but perhaps I will gain some benefit from it—be it now or sometime in the future.
I’ve deliberately put off posting until now (as I created my account on this website nearly two weeks ago), so I could start off as the New Year does—perhaps it can be a new year’s resolution, to keep this thing updated. Looking back on 2011, I feel as though I am currently sitting in the eye of a hurricane after surviving half the storm, only waiting for it to continue. But I can never know for sure what the future holds; only time will tell that.
I find it ironic, that even though my father is dying of cancer—melanoma, to be exact—that my home, for the past few months, has felt more like a home than ever before. I believe it to be the realization that my father’s time is limited that has changed his behavior.
An example of this is this past Christmas. The holiday itself was, in actuality, pathetic. We did nothing the entire day, not even a special Christmas dinner. It was the days surrounding the holiday that actually made it feel like a holiday. My brother and his family stopped by to visit, as did an old friend of my father’s, and my half-brother and his mother.
It was nice, to have visitors.
I was shocked when my father apologized to me, for not being able to afford presents for my sister and I for Christmas. We hadn’t expected anything for the holiday, as we haven’t received anything from him in the past few years. I told him that it didn’t matter, because this year’s Christmas still felt more like Christmas than in the past years, when we did get presents.
…I like to think this isn’t a result of the $325 in cash that I’ve received from other sources for Christmas.
In other news, tomorrow is my Nephew’s birthday, although his birthday party was today. It was nice to see pictures of his birthday party via Facebook, but I can’t help but feel a bit sad that I didn’t wish him a happy birthday when I last saw him in person, which was only yesterday. It had completely slipped my mind that his birthday was so soon.
Anyway… I’m out of relevant topics to write about. Let’s see how long it’ll take me to update again! (:
Happy New Year!
